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So, helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooo there! Hehe. It feels weird every single time I say hi at the start of my blog post because... is there really anyone reading this lol. It's okay. If it's not anyone else, there's always me who'll someday come back and read what I've written down here haha. Alright, back to the topic. Real business here, there's no way I can talk about my medical school journey in this one post. I actually wanted to talk about my final year especially about THE MOST INTENSE BATTLE I'VE GONE THROUGH MY WHOLE LIFE. It's necessary to type it with all capital letters to um, just highlight it? Haha. I'm gonna talk about my final Professional 3 exam. If any of my juniors are reading this, I really hope that I won't scare you too much ey? Because even if it's really bad or scary, a lot of people have went through it and nobody has ever died sitting for the exam hahaha. I can now laugh talking about this but definitely not at...

Well, hello people. I'm now typing from my room at USM. Yes, I'm still here when I think everyone else are enjoying tea time at home, hanging out at the mall, having fun wherever they are. And me? I'm all alone here trying to figure out what should I do after this. Oh probably get myself some food. Yup. Why I'm still not home? The family is coming over tomorrow and then we're gonna go jalan-jalan a bit here and then until we head back home on Monday. That's about it. This is the first time staying alone here though. Sigh. It's completely silent okay and that's not okay with me. I'm not that scared but kind of when I start imagining things and then I'll be like talking to myself, "what movie should I watch after this" or "I think I'm gonna eat cereal" every time I was looking at the mirror in the toilet brushing my teeth or washing my face. Ish -___-" And there's this black cat, a naughty one wondering aro...

Salam and hi semuaaaaaaa! Hehe. Happy pulak dia ni tau harini. Harini nak post gaya gegirl sikit, kalau korang rasa macam tak mampu nak teruskan, sila klik pangkah. .......... ...... ... . Eh masih nak baca ke? Hehe. Okay. Sebenarnya rasa macam banyak nak cerita like always. Dah nak 2 bulan masuk second year ni and truth is, it's a whole different story now. Tak sama langsung dengan first year! And baru terasa macam doktor-doktor sikit hehe :D Mana nak mula ni? Okay, kita start dengan PBL. Kalau masa first year ada SGD (small group discussion), sekarang upgrade jadi PBL (problem-based learning). PBL ni lagi mencabar rasanya sebab ada minimum 2 kali seminggu and maksimum 3 kali seminggu. Ye, setiap minggu ada PBL. Kalau dulu, SGD ada paling banyak pun 2 kot (?) ; satu untuk physiology dan satu untuk biochemistry setiap blok. Kalau dulu SGD malas nak buat, apatah lagi PBL ni. Dulu SGD, dapat soalan and kita kena jawab je. Tapi PBL ni, depa bagi scene contohnya, ...

If my bed can talk, probably that's what it would say to me the second I entered my room. Eheh. So I'm blogging from my new room at good 'ol USM now ;) From the second floor to the ground floor and a double room this time. And my roommate is Ika! One of my roommates before. Sebenarnya Syafika dah call bagitau haritu sebab dia balik awal. Dia jadi PPSL untuk pelajar baru, kakak fasi weh hehe. That's a good news sebab masa duduk rumah tu dok terpikir siapalah roommates nanti. Sebelum ni pelajar tahun dua dapat bilik berempat and 3 orang lagi junior. Doa-doalah dapat junior sama course so that they know they shouldn't be messing around with me when it's the exam season. Well, I can turn into a beast when it comes to exams -____-" Tapi alhamdulillah, fret not! Bilik dah double and roommate pulak Ika. No issue :D Since yesterday, rasanya duduk ground floor ni okay je. Except ada banyak bahan buangan kucing aiyoyo. Tapi dulu tingkat dua pun ada jugak, ta...

Assalamualaikum and hi. Sorry that I've been busy nowadays. Not real busy but literally. No, I'm quite busy actually. Yeah, busy. Blergh. I now forgot how I usually blog already ish. Anyway, my final exam or we call it Professional 1 is coming reaaal soon. About 9 days to go? Heh. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Sigh. I just don't know how to describe my feelings right now. I've got 16 blocks altogether for this whole first year and I did some reading about one block and then I get bored so I moved on to the next block and it happened all the way that I've only managed to finish a few blocks since the first day of the month. And now, here I am, writing out what I feel. Of course I'm scared. You know how things work here? No? Okay, let me tell you how. Here, we've got 3 phases in 5 years to be completed. I'm in the first phase which is the first year. The second phase (pre-clinical) comprises of the second and third year while the fourth and fift...

So the last time I made a blogpost was on March 18th which is... last month.  Not bad of an achievement for not abandoning this blog hehe :p I've got a lot to share with you guys (again) but I feel very bad of doing so every time the thought went through my mind just because I still have so much to revise for Selanjar 3 :( But yeah, things are still the same so let's just run through a few updates! Hmm (checking through pictures)... I'm not sure which came first but here are some pictures of what took place recently.  TERANI classical games. Rabbani in the house! Hehe. This is one of the events during FesKI (Festival Kelestarian Islam). Went to their concert and watching them perform live is pure awesome! :D ...and more pictures to be kept private :D I'm going to share more about the last set of pictures, bare with me alright? Good. That was during our CPP (Commu...

Hello there. How've you been? Good? Good. I'm feeling numb at the moment. Doing every single thing too slow as slow as a sloth. Tau tak sloth tu menatang apa? Haa apa kata hangpa pi google okay. Kami tak tau lagu mana nak habaq kat hangpa. Terer dak kami cakap loghat utagha? Hekhekhek. Takde mood la weh. Awatnya lagu ni, tolong tolonggg! Sebenarnya, I memang buat kerja lambat yang amat. Tak tau la kenapa. Walaupun cuba buat lelaju, mesti lambat jugak. Nak kata trying to be a perfectionist, emangnya nggaklah. Kerja cincai je. Okay cukuplah tu, macam nak bocorkan rahsia sendiri pulak. No no malu (").(") Sebenarnya nak cakap yang dah mula malas balik T______T Nota tak baca, masa lecture main game. Apakah ini, Shahiela?! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. Acaner nak buat ni? Acaner? Acaner? Selanjar 3 lagi sebulan je. Banyak tau kena revise. Selanjar 3 ni ada OSPE pulak tu. OSPE ni exam macam practical tapi bukan practical sangatlah. Apakah? -___-...

Balik rumah nanti nak manfaatkan masa yang ada sebaik-baiknya. Nak spend time dengan family, girlfriends and kawan-kawan. Tak lupa juga untuk diri sendiri. Paling penting sekali adalah masakan dan air tangan mama yang va va voom itew. Dah buat list nak mama masak apa *drools. Mungkin akan tolong mama masak juga sebab yours truly ni tak reti masak wuwuwu T_________T Yes, kena pastikan Selanjar 2 ini smooth and easy sebab nak enjoy cuti ni. Bila malas, ingat nak balik. Bila nak balik, ingat makanan. Wah macam budak demok umur 5 tahun yang cuma tahu makan, tidur dan main.

1) Hello, you. 2) It's now 'winter' in Kelantan. 3) The rain has stopped raining heavily for 2 days. 4) Got myself a study group with Fatin, Haikal and Hanna. Yay! 5) Striving to finish reading the lecture notes. 6) Done with the central nervous system block. 7) Starting haemopoietic block next week. 8) Today's Thursday. 9) Got through the interview and am involved in MSFT (Medical Student Facilitator Team). 10) Gonna have a KTP training camp tomorrow and the day after. 11) I'm hungry. 12) Went for a haircut just now with Syu. 13) I love food. 14) Saw rats at the food stalls -__-" 15) Selanjar 2 is on February. 16) Having a week break after that for CNY. 17) Wondering when is money going to grow on trees. 18) Went to eat steamboat that day with my roommates. Nice! 19) I miss Khim. :) Why am I blogging like this? Just because Khim blogged this way. Haha. And why do I have to follow? Refer number 19. ;)

Hidup sekarang ni macam kucar-kacir sikit. Selanjar 1 mesti dijadikan teladan. Kena perform better untuk Selanjar 2 dan 3 dan Pro 1. Yeah. Tengah berusaha untuk baca, digest and ingat apa yang I belajar everyday. Pagi tadi sepatutnya ada kuiz keusahawanan tapi cancel sebab ada connection problem. Eh ambil course lain tapi kuiz course lain ni ape cer pulak? Ni course sampingan yang wajib diambil dan perlu lulus. Yes, itu saja cerita dia. Masa orientasi dulu. Zarith lukis hoho. Hm apa lagi eh nak cakap? Nak bebel? Nak mengeluh? Epp tak boleh mengeluh. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH meletakkanmu dalam BIDANG itu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH mengurniakanmu KEPAKARAN itu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH memberikan UJIAN sebegitu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH membiarkanmu mengemudi dalam KEADAAN sebegitu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH tahu kamu akan memberikan sesuatu dalam bidang itu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH tahu kamu bakal membiakkan ilmu-ilmu itu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH akan temukan kamu dengan insan-insan ikhlas me...

Selanjar 1 is overrrrr! :D (jangan ceritalah boleh jawab ke tak k) Sesungguhnya saya telah mendapat satu pengajaran. Akhirnya. That 'call' I've been waiting to finally start doing something. Cara belajar sejak sekolah yang dibawa sampai matriks dah tak boleh diaplikasikan ya kawan-kawan. Last minute studying is so not reliable anymore. *sighs But for now... Food? Checked. Movie? Checked. Face masks? Checked. Plushies/teddy bears/ pillows? Checked. Untuk apa ni? So untuk meraikan habis Selanjar 1 ni, malam ni kitorang satu bilik nak buat slumber party! Look at our happy faces hahaha. :D

Selanjar 1 is what we call it here. Exam je pun. Macam Ujian 1 masa dekat sekolah dulu. Ulang lagi sekali semua tu sekarang. Gilaaaaaaaaa jauh beza dari masa sekolah tu okay! T___T Menakutkan baiii dengan bukan main banyak lagi kena baca and hafal, dengan diri ini yang mempunyai daya menghafal yang rendah, bukan senang ya kawan-kawan. Tapi usah merungut, kita dah sampai sejauh ini. Tak mungkin berpatah balik, majulah ke hadapan. Ayuh kawan-kawan, kita pasti boleh! Eh ada sesiapa tau soalan bocor tak? Hahahaha zaman sekolah, comel je forward message soalan spot konon. Tolonglah, comel gila tahu. p.s. Self motivation sangattttt, I can see... nothing. LOL, mesti boleh mesti boleh mesti boleh! Hey ho, let's go! :D I know I've been missing for quite some time, ada orang dah rinduuuu kita sebab dia nak tau perkembangan hidup kita through blog ni je coughGeecough hahaha :P I'll be back after exam, insyaAllah. Till then, xoxo

Hi there. Udah lama nggak ketemu kan. Maafin gwe ya, gwe agak kesibukan sikit ni... Cut! Dah lama tak tengok sinetron, inilah jadinya (padahal jarang tengok). Okay. So how are you doing? Great? Great. Me? Great. Just great. Maknanya? Still surviving. In all terms, food, lifestyle and study (literally). Haha. Well, I gotta take study a little at a time. Yelah I bukannya jenis belajar 24/7 since high school lagi. Sekarang masuk med school tetiba kena revise lecture notes everyday ; min 2, max 4 memanglah satu keajaiban kalau boleh terus biasakan diri ye dak? At least I revised although tak berjaya habis hari-hari. 2 - 4 one hour lecture notes sounds little but to understand and even better memorize them ain't that easy people. Trust meh. Contohnya tadi, ada 3 hours of lecture about muscle ; shoulder, axilla, arm and forearm. 1 hour boleh fokus, second hour dah lost somewhere along the lecture, third lecture banyak gilos memang dah borak dengan Ika pasal benda lain. Haha....

Alhamdulillah. It's been a month already since I got here.. Phew. Learned many new things, practiced a better routine (although not that good to be proud of but at least better than before :p) and get to meet new people which I'd say friends by now :) And today, I am officially nineteen. Uww for once I feel old -____-" Being at the final year before getting into the twenties, oh my. I'm that old already? SERIOUSLY?! But who am I kidding? LOL. We all grow up, everyone including plants and animals. To think of it again, it's good to be nineteen. You learn a lot of things in all sorts of manners. In a more matured way. Yeah. Dah masanya untuk kau bersikap lebih matang dalam semua perkara, tak boleh perangai macam budak 3 tahun lagi. Budak darjah 4 pun tak boleh, tingkatan 5 pun tak boleh. *penuh semangat* Thank you for all the birthday wishes via Facebook, Twitter, calls, text messages and et cetera. It feels really good to know that people rememb...

Ni hao! :D Eceh hasil 3 minggu pergi kelas Mandarin. Itu je? Banyak lagilah siap dengan tulisan sekali okay. Penat practice tulis and hafal characters tu. Teringat zaman tadika kena masuk kelas Mandarin pastu menangis tak nak buat homework kena tulis character bebanyak lantas kak Leen jadi mangsa tolong buat homework. Teringat jugak penipuan yang tak boleh diterima oleh kanak-kanak ini iaitu mengaku dah terer bahasa Mandarin padahal... So sihat ke awak awak dan awak? Bajet ramai yang membaca blog picisan ni... Tak kisahlah kan, janji I happy uolls :p Sebelum ni I kata nak cerita pasal orientasi and kem kan? Tetiba macam dah malas sebab dah 3 minggu selepas kejadian. Bukan cerita basi je tapi cerita basi berulat berkulat semua dah. Tapi sebab dah kata nak cerita kan, I cerita sepantas kilat okay! Orientasi mula hari Sabtu (hari pendaftaran) sampai hari Khamis the next week. Basically, the orientation is as usual macam orientasi masa matriks jugak tapi tak a...

Pejam celik pejam celik jalan lari jalan lari merungut bercakap merungut bercakap dah masuk minggu kedua dekat Kelantan. Woaaaaah! Sila tepuk tangan beramai-ramai. Walaupun minggu ni cuti 3 hari dan boleh balik, I tak balik pun tau. Mungkin balik November masa cuti mid-sem nanti. Tak pernah-pernah tak balik lama macam ni masa dekat Banting okay. Kalau dah 3 minggu, mestilah banyak sangat nak cerita. Tersebut alkisah Raja Melewar eh tak tak. Kita buat slowly okay? Hehe. Kali ni nak cerita soal pre-universiti. Eceh perkataan I, pre-u okay. Hahaha. Minggu terakhir dekat rumah, I mengaku memang ada mood swing. Bukan sebab bulan penuh, bulan mengambang atau apa-apa yang berkaitan dengan bulan tapi sebab I dah kena pergi jauh daripada keluarga yang tercinta dan orang-orang yang disayangi dekat di hati. Uwww. Until one day that I can't bare the stress anymore, I actually cried my hearts out T_____T Haha. Baby betul kan tapi kau peduli apa :p And then Thursday came. Kam...