plucking daisies

Salam & hi there. I bought a novel entitled "Girl Online" recently and just started reading it. It's about a girl starting a blog anonymously to share what she feels with other people. The first post was about things that make her anxious. Those things are somewhat similar for me as well. So that triggers me to blog today and I'm going to talk about... Not yours but mine. We probably share the same insecurities... especially if you're a girl. Eh girl lagi ke ni hahahaha biar ah. Or maybe even if you're a guy... it's okay. Insecurities is not gender biased. It hits everyone. EVERYONE. I realized that as I grow up, I have more insecurities. There are so many things to feel insecure about. Kadang-kadang tu memang kita tak perasan pun yang kita insecure. Have you ever come across this situation where you see that someone has this special thing about himself/herself then you start checking for their flaws? Hahaha that's nasty, no? I d...

"So this is just a reminder to myself and all; don’t be consumed by other people’s lives. Be happy for other people’s rezeki and at the same time, appreciate your own rezeki. Live for your own life, love your loved ones and count your blessings everyday. I honestly believe that’s the key to happiness." Taken from Vivy Yusof's blogpost here . I realized that I've been complaining a lot recently. So much to do, yet so little time. Nah, you big fat liar. I spent too much time relaxing and lazing around. Wayyy too much. And then I start complaining this and that. Sigh. Read Vivy's blog just now and came across with that post she wrote. Perfectly written. I've been too busy being jealous and questioning on people's rezeki and stuffs, why is she/he  like this and that, that should be me and whatever crap that were in my mind. What was I thinking, man? T_T So I guess I should constantly remind myself now. Less complaining and be m...

"Punyalah banyak dosa aku, lagi tinggi dari bukit Uhud rasanya." "Dosa banyak mana pun, Allah boleh ampunkan." "Dosa aku banyak sangat." "Allah kan ada? Minta ampun pada Dia." "Hm. Tapi.. tapi." "Okey, apa masalahnya?" "Macam ni, kalau someone ni suka tengok benda lucah, dan susah nak berhenti. Nak buat macam mana?" Tunduk. "Haih." Tanpa sengaja, keluhan berat dilepaskan. "Kena disiplin, boleh?" "Disiplin? Untuk apa?" Berkerut dahinya. "Macam ni. Buat satu denda untuk diri sendiri. Contohnya, setiap sekali tengok video lucah dengan sengaja, kena qiamullail untuk satu malam." "Kalau tak terbangun macam mana? Mana tahu terbangun lewat ke." "Kalau tak buat, kena tambah lagi. Buat dua malam." "Habis kalau tak mampu macam mana?" "Aik? Layan video lucah boleh, takkan solat tak boleh?" ...