plucking daisies

Warning : This post is an emotional one. So yeah. Usual rantings but with more emotions. LOL. Assalamualaikum and hello. I just got back from the ward actually. Feeling tired and... gloomy? Without no solid reason pun. The feeling just came and surrounds me. Or maybe there are reasons but there's too many that I can't even point it out. Then I started questioning, "why am I even here?" "Tak layak pun..." Such questions often came into my mind lately. Entahlah kenapa asyik rasa macam ni je. Setiap hari, jadi makin teruk. My usual stress therapy doesn't seem to work anymore. Still sad. Still moody. Still feeling down. And a little depressed kot. A little. So what now? I don't like seeing myself being all moody and depressed. Because every time I'm feeling like that, I just got even lazier and I tend to sleep a lot. Things were not right. :( I thought it's homesick. It can be one of the reasons. But ...

Salam and hi. Err? Awkward much. How long have I been away now? Roughly around 2 months, aye? No, not really. I've always been here every now and then or you can say... every hour? Hehe. Not coming up with a blog post doesn't really mean I'm not here, it's just I'm quite busy or maybe not but still can be considered busy, I guess. :p My December was fine but January was fully occupied! Haha. Had lots of last minute work and changes that I had to cramped everything up in that 31 days. Haaa alasan untuk tak sempat study, ehem. No, seriously. I don't have much time to or maybe I spent too much for sleep but I was almost always tired every time I got back to my room :/ Oh by the way, happy 2014? Hehe. During the first weekend of January, I went to MRSM Taiping with 5 friends for a presentation on the Junior Doctors program. Then next weekend was spent at RAYS. I was free for the third weekend and was supposed to study which I didn't blergh. Became a fac...

Well, hello people. I'm now typing from my room at USM. Yes, I'm still here when I think everyone else are enjoying tea time at home, hanging out at the mall, having fun wherever they are. And me? I'm all alone here trying to figure out what should I do after this. Oh probably get myself some food. Yup. Why I'm still not home? The family is coming over tomorrow and then we're gonna go jalan-jalan a bit here and then until we head back home on Monday. That's about it. This is the first time staying alone here though. Sigh. It's completely silent okay and that's not okay with me. I'm not that scared but kind of when I start imagining things and then I'll be like talking to myself, "what movie should I watch after this" or "I think I'm gonna eat cereal" every time I was looking at the mirror in the toilet brushing my teeth or washing my face. Ish -___-" And there's this black cat, a naughty one wondering aro...

Salam and hi semuaaaaaaa! Hehe. Happy pulak dia ni tau harini. Harini nak post gaya gegirl sikit, kalau korang rasa macam tak mampu nak teruskan, sila klik pangkah. .......... ...... ... . Eh masih nak baca ke? Hehe. Okay. Sebenarnya rasa macam banyak nak cerita like always. Dah nak 2 bulan masuk second year ni and truth is, it's a whole different story now. Tak sama langsung dengan first year! And baru terasa macam doktor-doktor sikit hehe :D Mana nak mula ni? Okay, kita start dengan PBL. Kalau masa first year ada SGD (small group discussion), sekarang upgrade jadi PBL (problem-based learning). PBL ni lagi mencabar rasanya sebab ada minimum 2 kali seminggu and maksimum 3 kali seminggu. Ye, setiap minggu ada PBL. Kalau dulu, SGD ada paling banyak pun 2 kot (?) ; satu untuk physiology dan satu untuk biochemistry setiap blok. Kalau dulu SGD malas nak buat, apatah lagi PBL ni. Dulu SGD, dapat soalan and kita kena jawab je. Tapi PBL ni, depa bagi scene contohnya, ...

If my bed can talk, probably that's what it would say to me the second I entered my room. Eheh. So I'm blogging from my new room at good 'ol USM now ;) From the second floor to the ground floor and a double room this time. And my roommate is Ika! One of my roommates before. Sebenarnya Syafika dah call bagitau haritu sebab dia balik awal. Dia jadi PPSL untuk pelajar baru, kakak fasi weh hehe. That's a good news sebab masa duduk rumah tu dok terpikir siapalah roommates nanti. Sebelum ni pelajar tahun dua dapat bilik berempat and 3 orang lagi junior. Doa-doalah dapat junior sama course so that they know they shouldn't be messing around with me when it's the exam season. Well, I can turn into a beast when it comes to exams -____-" Tapi alhamdulillah, fret not! Bilik dah double and roommate pulak Ika. No issue :D Since yesterday, rasanya duduk ground floor ni okay je. Except ada banyak bahan buangan kucing aiyoyo. Tapi dulu tingkat dua pun ada jugak, ta...