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So, helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooo there! Hehe. It feels weird every single time I say hi at the start of my blog post because... is there really anyone reading this lol. It's okay. If it's not anyone else, there's always me who'll someday come back and read what I've written down here haha. Alright, back to the topic. Real business here, there's no way I can talk about my medical school journey in this one post. I actually wanted to talk about my final year especially about THE MOST INTENSE BATTLE I'VE GONE THROUGH MY WHOLE LIFE. It's necessary to type it with all capital letters to um, just highlight it? Haha. I'm gonna talk about my final Professional 3 exam. If any of my juniors are reading this, I really hope that I won't scare you too much ey? Because even if it's really bad or scary, a lot of people have went through it and nobody has ever died sitting for the exam hahaha. I can now laugh talking about this but definitely not at...

Warning : This post is an emotional one. So yeah. Usual rantings but with more emotions. LOL. Assalamualaikum and hello. I just got back from the ward actually. Feeling tired and... gloomy? Without no solid reason pun. The feeling just came and surrounds me. Or maybe there are reasons but there's too many that I can't even point it out. Then I started questioning, "why am I even here?" "Tak layak pun..." Such questions often came into my mind lately. Entahlah kenapa asyik rasa macam ni je. Setiap hari, jadi makin teruk. My usual stress therapy doesn't seem to work anymore. Still sad. Still moody. Still feeling down. And a little depressed kot. A little. So what now? I don't like seeing myself being all moody and depressed. Because every time I'm feeling like that, I just got even lazier and I tend to sleep a lot. Things were not right. :( I thought it's homesick. It can be one of the reasons. But ...

Salam and hi. Err? Awkward much. How long have I been away now? Roughly around 2 months, aye? No, not really. I've always been here every now and then or you can say... every hour? Hehe. Not coming up with a blog post doesn't really mean I'm not here, it's just I'm quite busy or maybe not but still can be considered busy, I guess. :p My December was fine but January was fully occupied! Haha. Had lots of last minute work and changes that I had to cramped everything up in that 31 days. Haaa alasan untuk tak sempat study, ehem. No, seriously. I don't have much time to or maybe I spent too much for sleep but I was almost always tired every time I got back to my room :/ Oh by the way, happy 2014? Hehe. During the first weekend of January, I went to MRSM Taiping with 5 friends for a presentation on the Junior Doctors program. Then next weekend was spent at RAYS. I was free for the third weekend and was supposed to study which I didn't blergh. Became a fac...

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah sebab lulus Pro 1! Cuak bak hang masa result diumumkan Timbalan Dekan haritu. Pergh, lemah jantung. Tapi ada 28 orang yang belum berjaya. Semoga hangpa semua kuat okay? Kami doakan hangpa boleh buat dengan lebih baik lagi nanti. Pesanan kepada diri sendiri jugak sebab TD kata ada 30+ lebih calon perantaraan haritu, 15 yang diluluskan. Rasanya kami antara yang bernasib baik tu. TD habaq biasanya yang calon perantaraan yang diluluskan kecundang jugak masa tahun ketiga nanti kalau tak berusaha lebih. Kami tak nak dah lah rasa takut sampai ketaq lutut macam haritu so kita kena usaha lebih lebih lebih lagi. Acano pulak nak usaha lebih lagi tu? Orang kata, menuntut ilmu tu pun satu bentuk jihad. Kalau nak berjihad, kenalah bersungguh baru berjaya. Ye dak? :) Sekarang ni bulan puasa. So macam tahun-tahun lepas, kena tolong mama buat kuih. Busy la sikit. Online pun curi-curi je tau haha. Nanti bila-bila, kami update la...

Assalamualaikum and hi. Sorry that I've been busy nowadays. Not real busy but literally. No, I'm quite busy actually. Yeah, busy. Blergh. I now forgot how I usually blog already ish. Anyway, my final exam or we call it Professional 1 is coming reaaal soon. About 9 days to go? Heh. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Sigh. I just don't know how to describe my feelings right now. I've got 16 blocks altogether for this whole first year and I did some reading about one block and then I get bored so I moved on to the next block and it happened all the way that I've only managed to finish a few blocks since the first day of the month. And now, here I am, writing out what I feel. Of course I'm scared. You know how things work here? No? Okay, let me tell you how. Here, we've got 3 phases in 5 years to be completed. I'm in the first phase which is the first year. The second phase (pre-clinical) comprises of the second and third year while the fourth and fift...

Hi there. So BN won the general election yesterday. Just through observation, I see and learn lots of thing. I'll be eligible to vote for the next election. I'm gonna do my own research and make a fair vote, hopefully. If you're reading this, let's join forces and bring our nation up and improve for the better while still be united. For now, let's leave it there first (of course, try to change ourself to be better all the time). Got my Selanjar 3 results last Thursday. It turned out to be as what I hope it would. I passed. Alhamdulillah. But then, my 30% carry mark is very, very little. Gotta brush up for the finals or we call it Professional Exam 1 (Pro 1). Eh bukan pro-kerajaan tu k, jangan nak politik sangat kat sini . It will be starting either at the end of June or early of July. Just finish counting and I have about 8 weeks to go, 54 days starting from tomorrow. How many notes to revise? Let's see. 16 blocks altogether, 3 of them are the 'killer'...

1. Make a notice board. 2. Put up instax on the wall. 3. Find quotes of motivations and print them as well as printable pictures. 4. Find more motivations. 5. Quote people around. 6. Appreciate more. 7. Say thank you. 8. Keep the momentum. 9. Recheck activities before sleep. 10. Smile to everyone.

So the last time I made a blogpost was on March 18th which is... last month.  Not bad of an achievement for not abandoning this blog hehe :p I've got a lot to share with you guys (again) but I feel very bad of doing so every time the thought went through my mind just because I still have so much to revise for Selanjar 3 :( But yeah, things are still the same so let's just run through a few updates! Hmm (checking through pictures)... I'm not sure which came first but here are some pictures of what took place recently.  TERANI classical games. Rabbani in the house! Hehe. This is one of the events during FesKI (Festival Kelestarian Islam). Went to their concert and watching them perform live is pure awesome! :D ...and more pictures to be kept private :D I'm going to share more about the last set of pictures, bare with me alright? Good. That was during our CPP (Commu...

Hello there. How've you been? Good? Good. I'm feeling numb at the moment. Doing every single thing too slow as slow as a sloth. Tau tak sloth tu menatang apa? Haa apa kata hangpa pi google okay. Kami tak tau lagu mana nak habaq kat hangpa. Terer dak kami cakap loghat utagha? Hekhekhek. Takde mood la weh. Awatnya lagu ni, tolong tolonggg! Sebenarnya, I memang buat kerja lambat yang amat. Tak tau la kenapa. Walaupun cuba buat lelaju, mesti lambat jugak. Nak kata trying to be a perfectionist, emangnya nggaklah. Kerja cincai je. Okay cukuplah tu, macam nak bocorkan rahsia sendiri pulak. No no malu (").(") Sebenarnya nak cakap yang dah mula malas balik T______T Nota tak baca, masa lecture main game. Apakah ini, Shahiela?! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. Acaner nak buat ni? Acaner? Acaner? Selanjar 3 lagi sebulan je. Banyak tau kena revise. Selanjar 3 ni ada OSPE pulak tu. OSPE ni exam macam practical tapi bukan practical sangatlah. Apakah? -___-...

Haiiiiiiii semua. Baiklah seperti biasa selalu lewat menunaikan janji, maafkan saya! Hehe. So, bulan lepas tak ingatlah berapa haribulan, I join program MSFT-KTP. MSFT-KTP tu apa? Nama panjangnya, Medical Student Facilitator Team - Knowledge Transfer Program. Dapat tak gambaran pasal apa ni? Tak dapat takpe, I bagitau haha. Dia macam kitorang ni pergi sekolah-sekolah kat Kelantan ni untuk kongsi ilmu (walaupun diri ini masih cetek ilmunya T___T). Kami berperanan sebagai fasilitator, membantu adik-adik ecewah! Faham kan kan kan? Cenggitulah ceritanya. Sekolah pertama yang I join ialah SMK Kubang Bemban, Pasir Mas. Iolls ni kan tak berapa nak reti sangat jadi fasi ni, jadi kita hentam kromo je. Nasiblah partner dengan kak Siti yang baik dan comel hehe. Kami in-charge untuk kumpulan 7. Maafkan akak ya adik-adik kalau ada tersalah informasi ke apa kan. Apa-apa pun, korang semua happening! Good job on the improvements each of you have made! ;) Group 7 (tiada dalam gambar - Hanan...

Balik rumah nanti nak manfaatkan masa yang ada sebaik-baiknya. Nak spend time dengan family, girlfriends and kawan-kawan. Tak lupa juga untuk diri sendiri. Paling penting sekali adalah masakan dan air tangan mama yang va va voom itew. Dah buat list nak mama masak apa *drools. Mungkin akan tolong mama masak juga sebab yours truly ni tak reti masak wuwuwu T_________T Yes, kena pastikan Selanjar 2 ini smooth and easy sebab nak enjoy cuti ni. Bila malas, ingat nak balik. Bila nak balik, ingat makanan. Wah macam budak demok umur 5 tahun yang cuma tahu makan, tidur dan main.

Dr. Roza | Azwan | All Cuti apa yang paling best sekali? Honeymoon? Hahahaha. Bukan. Cuti lepas lulus exam. Masa tu tak payah fikir pape dah, cutilah sepuas-puasnya. Hi semua. Kat atas ni conversation masa practical fisiologi pagi tadi. Macam-macam orang sekeliling cakap yang berkaitan exam sekarang ni. Lagi 2 minggu je untuk Selanjar 2. 3 block, 3 kertas tapi ya Allah, banyak sebenarnya nak kena ulangkaji. Ada banyak nak cerita tapi semuanya nak kena ada banyak masa. Tak sempat (kot). Nak cerita pasal azam tahun baru, program MSFT-KTP dan... dah lupa dah. Lepas exam lah k? Itu pun kalau sempat (lagi). By that time, cerita pun dah basi. Eh macam tak biasa je cerita basi. Mungkin patut pertimbangkan untuk tukar nama blog ni kepada "Cerita Basi" ataupun "Expired Stories". Nak minta tolong sikit boleh? Tolong doakan semoga Allah permudahkan saya dan kawan-kawan untuk jawab soalan exam nanti. Saya pun akan buat benda sama untuk kalian. ...