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So, helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooo there! Hehe. It feels weird every single time I say hi at the start of my blog post because... is there really anyone reading this lol. It's okay. If it's not anyone else, there's always me who'll someday come back and read what I've written down here haha. Alright, back to the topic. Real business here, there's no way I can talk about my medical school journey in this one post. I actually wanted to talk about my final year especially about THE MOST INTENSE BATTLE I'VE GONE THROUGH MY WHOLE LIFE. It's necessary to type it with all capital letters to um, just highlight it? Haha. I'm gonna talk about my final Professional 3 exam. If any of my juniors are reading this, I really hope that I won't scare you too much ey? Because even if it's really bad or scary, a lot of people have went through it and nobody has ever died sitting for the exam hahaha. I can now laugh talking about this but definitely not at...

Assalamualaikum and hi again! I've neglected this blog again... Did a few attempts to put up an update before this but didn't manage to finish even one. It's not that I have nothing to say, I just can't. There's time when you suddenly has so many things to share and it all went missing when you're ready to hit the keyboard. Haa gitulah ceritanya. Eheh. I'm back now, anyway. But I can't say for how long until I go missing again... So now, it's approaching the end of my third year in medical school. Just finished my Selanjar 3 and long case exam a few days ago. Exams were always a pain in the ass for me. Struggled so hard during my study week. Yelah suka sangat study last minute kan, padan muka. It was crazy I tell you, crazy. That's just Selanjar 3 and long case, Pro 2 ni tak taulah macam mana. But good thing this time, we have 3 weeks of study week for our Pro 2. Well, at least bolehlah bernafas sikit kan. Haha. I h...

Warning : This post is an emotional one. So yeah. Usual rantings but with more emotions. LOL. Assalamualaikum and hello. I just got back from the ward actually. Feeling tired and... gloomy? Without no solid reason pun. The feeling just came and surrounds me. Or maybe there are reasons but there's too many that I can't even point it out. Then I started questioning, "why am I even here?" "Tak layak pun..." Such questions often came into my mind lately. Entahlah kenapa asyik rasa macam ni je. Setiap hari, jadi makin teruk. My usual stress therapy doesn't seem to work anymore. Still sad. Still moody. Still feeling down. And a little depressed kot. A little. So what now? I don't like seeing myself being all moody and depressed. Because every time I'm feeling like that, I just got even lazier and I tend to sleep a lot. Things were not right. :( I thought it's homesick. It can be one of the reasons. But ...

Salam and hi. Err? Awkward much. How long have I been away now? Roughly around 2 months, aye? No, not really. I've always been here every now and then or you can say... every hour? Hehe. Not coming up with a blog post doesn't really mean I'm not here, it's just I'm quite busy or maybe not but still can be considered busy, I guess. :p My December was fine but January was fully occupied! Haha. Had lots of last minute work and changes that I had to cramped everything up in that 31 days. Haaa alasan untuk tak sempat study, ehem. No, seriously. I don't have much time to or maybe I spent too much for sleep but I was almost always tired every time I got back to my room :/ Oh by the way, happy 2014? Hehe. During the first weekend of January, I went to MRSM Taiping with 5 friends for a presentation on the Junior Doctors program. Then next weekend was spent at RAYS. I was free for the third weekend and was supposed to study which I didn't blergh. Became a fac...