plucking daisies

So, helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooo there! Hehe. It feels weird every single time I say hi at the start of my blog post because... is there really anyone reading this lol. It's okay. If it's not anyone else, there's always me who'll someday come back and read what I've written down here haha. Alright, back to the topic. Real business here, there's no way I can talk about my medical school journey in this one post. I actually wanted to talk about my final year especially about THE MOST INTENSE BATTLE I'VE GONE THROUGH MY WHOLE LIFE. It's necessary to type it with all capital letters to um, just highlight it? Haha. I'm gonna talk about my final Professional 3 exam. If any of my juniors are reading this, I really hope that I won't scare you too much ey? Because even if it's really bad or scary, a lot of people have went through it and nobody has ever died sitting for the exam hahaha. I can now laugh talking about this but definitely not at...

Dah jadi rutin setiap pagi mesti kena check Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. Kalau sempat breakfast, sambil breakfastlah. Kalau tak sempat, masa sampai dewan kuliah. Walaupun cuma beberapa minit, mesti tengok jugak. Facebook terutamanya paling penting untuk aku. Kenapa? Sebab Facebooklah tempat yang boleh kata hampir semua kawan-kawan ada; kawan sekolah, matriks and universiti. Universiti uolls. Janggal bunyinya. Macam tak percaya dah masuk universiti haha. Okay so bila check FB tu hari-hari, mestilah ramai kawan-kawan update kan. Update gambar, aktiviti, status macam-macamlah. Bila tengok tu semua, selalu teringat balik masa sekolah dulu. Those sweet old memories. Teringat macam mana perangai masing-masing masa sekolah. Aku mengaku, kitorang antara geng skema kat sekolah. Geng skema yang cikgu kenal, geng skema yang siapkan homework, geng skema yang tak langgar peraturan sekolah (okay, ni bukti paling kukuh buat kitorang skema), geng skema yang... you name it. Semakin j...

Well, hello people. I'm now typing from my room at USM. Yes, I'm still here when I think everyone else are enjoying tea time at home, hanging out at the mall, having fun wherever they are. And me? I'm all alone here trying to figure out what should I do after this. Oh probably get myself some food. Yup. Why I'm still not home? The family is coming over tomorrow and then we're gonna go jalan-jalan a bit here and then until we head back home on Monday. That's about it. This is the first time staying alone here though. Sigh. It's completely silent okay and that's not okay with me. I'm not that scared but kind of when I start imagining things and then I'll be like talking to myself, "what movie should I watch after this" or "I think I'm gonna eat cereal" every time I was looking at the mirror in the toilet brushing my teeth or washing my face. Ish -___-" And there's this black cat, a naughty one wondering aro...

Assalamualaikum. Hai. Hello. Err... ............................................ (after 15 minutes) Okay. Dah tak tau ah nak update blog canerrr. Kaku je jari ni. Kalau dulu kemain laju je jari ni nak menaip semua yang ada di hati ecewah! :p Let's this post be untitled k. And macam biasa bahasa rojak ye sebab nanti kaku lagi terus cancel je post ni kang. Baiklah. Tujuan post kali ini adalah untuk ucap Selamat Hari Rayaaaaaaaaaaaaa, korangz! Hahaha okay kelakar sangat kan. Dah nak habis Syawal baru nak wish ke? Maafkan saya! Boleh kata busy jugak ah sebenarnya sebab masa bulan puasa haritu sibuk tolong mama buat kuih. Order tahun ni lebih banyak so I'm tied to that and I don't even go out with my friends much. Or simply not at all. Selain Dieya haritu, itu pun sekejap sangat. So now, kita update cerita Raya la k? Raya pun tak tau nak cakap apa sangat sebab kita tak ambil gambar pun sebab tak berapa sihat haritu. Panas sesangat, ya Allah. Lagipun ta...

Assalamualaikum and hi. Sorry that I've been busy nowadays. Not real busy but literally. No, I'm quite busy actually. Yeah, busy. Blergh. I now forgot how I usually blog already ish. Anyway, my final exam or we call it Professional 1 is coming reaaal soon. About 9 days to go? Heh. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Sigh. I just don't know how to describe my feelings right now. I've got 16 blocks altogether for this whole first year and I did some reading about one block and then I get bored so I moved on to the next block and it happened all the way that I've only managed to finish a few blocks since the first day of the month. And now, here I am, writing out what I feel. Of course I'm scared. You know how things work here? No? Okay, let me tell you how. Here, we've got 3 phases in 5 years to be completed. I'm in the first phase which is the first year. The second phase (pre-clinical) comprises of the second and third year while the fourth and fift...

Hello there. How've you been? Good? Good. I'm feeling numb at the moment. Doing every single thing too slow as slow as a sloth. Tau tak sloth tu menatang apa? Haa apa kata hangpa pi google okay. Kami tak tau lagu mana nak habaq kat hangpa. Terer dak kami cakap loghat utagha? Hekhekhek. Takde mood la weh. Awatnya lagu ni, tolong tolonggg! Sebenarnya, I memang buat kerja lambat yang amat. Tak tau la kenapa. Walaupun cuba buat lelaju, mesti lambat jugak. Nak kata trying to be a perfectionist, emangnya nggaklah. Kerja cincai je. Okay cukuplah tu, macam nak bocorkan rahsia sendiri pulak. No no malu (").(") Sebenarnya nak cakap yang dah mula malas balik T______T Nota tak baca, masa lecture main game. Apakah ini, Shahiela?! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. Acaner nak buat ni? Acaner? Acaner? Selanjar 3 lagi sebulan je. Banyak tau kena revise. Selanjar 3 ni ada OSPE pulak tu. OSPE ni exam macam practical tapi bukan practical sangatlah. Apakah? -___-...

Balik rumah nanti nak manfaatkan masa yang ada sebaik-baiknya. Nak spend time dengan family, girlfriends and kawan-kawan. Tak lupa juga untuk diri sendiri. Paling penting sekali adalah masakan dan air tangan mama yang va va voom itew. Dah buat list nak mama masak apa *drools. Mungkin akan tolong mama masak juga sebab yours truly ni tak reti masak wuwuwu T_________T Yes, kena pastikan Selanjar 2 ini smooth and easy sebab nak enjoy cuti ni. Bila malas, ingat nak balik. Bila nak balik, ingat makanan. Wah macam budak demok umur 5 tahun yang cuma tahu makan, tidur dan main.

2012. Banyak dah berlaku. Banyak dah belajar. Banyak dah berjalan. Banyak dah jatuh. Banyak dah bangun. Kalau nak cerita balik satu per satu daripada awal tahun... tak mungkin. Terlalu banyak. Tapi nak flashback jugak. Hehe. January - First blood donation! :D February - Nothing big kot sebab ada satu blogpost je pasal  nap . LOL. March - Did rat dissection at matrics. ;) April - PSPM 2. And finished matrics on the 26th of April. :') May - Got matrics exam result and attended the interview for Med at USM. Who ever knew that I'd be here now? :) And also, tried working ;) June - Didn't blogged anything much. Cerita pasal pengalaman kerja and made a blogpost for my parents ♥ July - Dapat result IV, alhamdulillah, here I am now. Quit working and marked an important date on the calendar ^__^ Busy tolong Mama buat kuih raya. Hehe. August - Raya macam biasa. Made preparation to Uni. And 3 pesanan untuk semua :) September - Started life a...

1) Hello, you. 2) It's now 'winter' in Kelantan. 3) The rain has stopped raining heavily for 2 days. 4) Got myself a study group with Fatin, Haikal and Hanna. Yay! 5) Striving to finish reading the lecture notes. 6) Done with the central nervous system block. 7) Starting haemopoietic block next week. 8) Today's Thursday. 9) Got through the interview and am involved in MSFT (Medical Student Facilitator Team). 10) Gonna have a KTP training camp tomorrow and the day after. 11) I'm hungry. 12) Went for a haircut just now with Syu. 13) I love food. 14) Saw rats at the food stalls -__-" 15) Selanjar 2 is on February. 16) Having a week break after that for CNY. 17) Wondering when is money going to grow on trees. 18) Went to eat steamboat that day with my roommates. Nice! 19) I miss Khim. :) Why am I blogging like this? Just because Khim blogged this way. Haha. And why do I have to follow? Refer number 19. ;)

Hidup sekarang ni macam kucar-kacir sikit. Selanjar 1 mesti dijadikan teladan. Kena perform better untuk Selanjar 2 dan 3 dan Pro 1. Yeah. Tengah berusaha untuk baca, digest and ingat apa yang I belajar everyday. Pagi tadi sepatutnya ada kuiz keusahawanan tapi cancel sebab ada connection problem. Eh ambil course lain tapi kuiz course lain ni ape cer pulak? Ni course sampingan yang wajib diambil dan perlu lulus. Yes, itu saja cerita dia. Masa orientasi dulu. Zarith lukis hoho. Hm apa lagi eh nak cakap? Nak bebel? Nak mengeluh? Epp tak boleh mengeluh. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH meletakkanmu dalam BIDANG itu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH mengurniakanmu KEPAKARAN itu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH memberikan UJIAN sebegitu.. BUKAN SAJA-SAJA ALLAH membiarkanmu mengemudi dalam KEADAAN sebegitu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH tahu kamu akan memberikan sesuatu dalam bidang itu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH tahu kamu bakal membiakkan ilmu-ilmu itu.. MELAINKAN ALLAH akan temukan kamu dengan insan-insan ikhlas me...

Why do you have to hate? Don’t you feel that sharp pain in your heart every time you hate? But why are you still hating? You’re jealous, aren’t you? Or you regret what you’ve done? You want things to be how they used to be but it won’t. And you did what you shouldn’t. Are you satisfied now with what you’ve done? Hurting others, seeing others suffering in pain? Is it fair to them? Are you happy with the revenge? Have you forgotten your roots? From where you belong and where you’ll return? Allah knows everything. He won’t miss a single thing. It will get back to you, honey. One day. And by that time, I hope it’s not too late for you to repent.

Manusia. Tak pernah lepas daripada masalah. Dari luaran tersenyum dan ketawa tapi dalam hati siapa tahu? Antara kita dan Dia saja. Kadang kita buat baik, orang tak suka ; menyampah atau benci. Bila buat jahat, lagilah orang tak suka. Manusia. Semuanya sama tapi yang membezakan mereka cuma satu ; sama ada lari dari masalah ataupun hadapi dengan hati yang tabah. Begitulah. "Ya Allah,Aku belindung kpdMu dari fitnah hidup & mati, aku juga berlindung dari siksa kubur." (HR Bukhari)

Hi there. Udah lama nggak ketemu kan. Maafin gwe ya, gwe agak kesibukan sikit ni... Cut! Dah lama tak tengok sinetron, inilah jadinya (padahal jarang tengok). Okay. So how are you doing? Great? Great. Me? Great. Just great. Maknanya? Still surviving. In all terms, food, lifestyle and study (literally). Haha. Well, I gotta take study a little at a time. Yelah I bukannya jenis belajar 24/7 since high school lagi. Sekarang masuk med school tetiba kena revise lecture notes everyday ; min 2, max 4 memanglah satu keajaiban kalau boleh terus biasakan diri ye dak? At least I revised although tak berjaya habis hari-hari. 2 - 4 one hour lecture notes sounds little but to understand and even better memorize them ain't that easy people. Trust meh. Contohnya tadi, ada 3 hours of lecture about muscle ; shoulder, axilla, arm and forearm. 1 hour boleh fokus, second hour dah lost somewhere along the lecture, third lecture banyak gilos memang dah borak dengan Ika pasal benda lain. Haha....

when you hit the wall, halt and step back. Do something else that you enjoy; a good meal, listen to your favourite music or reading a comic book. Come back the next day, look at the problem from a different perspective, you shall see a thing ain't that bad/difficult, after all. - Uncle :)

Seperti yang telah dijanjikan (eh tak, tak I tak janji pun), post baru! Dah 6 hari semenjak I berhenti kerja. Berhenti kerja dekat stesen minyak tu tak bermakna sekarang ni menganggur ya. Sekarang sibuk berbisnes ecewah ;p Sepanjang kerja 3 bulan ni terlalu banyak benda baru I belajar. Tak kiralah dari segi kehidupan ke, kemahiran ke, persahabatan ke, semua ada. BANYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK SANGAT. Okay you got it, right? Haha. Tapi I nak pesan kat uolls 3 perkara je. 3 perkara yang boleh mengubah persepsi orang terhadap diri anda. 3 perkara yang boleh menjadikan anda orang yang lebih baik. 3 perkara yang boleh membuatkan orang jatuh cinta dengan anda. Eh?! Mungkin. 1) Hormat Ini perkara paling jelas, terang dan nyata I belajar sepanjang bekerja. Yeah I know, my parents taught me well since I was little to respect people who're older yadda yadda yadda... If that was what you thought, look! Tolonglah uolls, kita sebagai manusia kena hormat semua orang. I repeat, S...

Howdy all? Today is the last day of June. Phew. Half of 2012 has passed by. Such a loooong month for me. Quite a few events took place. Second month of work. Learnt a lot of things. Got pissed off by some irrelevant customers. Macam-macam perangai ada. Pening. -__-" So I guess, we all shall say hello to July? Yes, hi July. One more important result is coming out. What I'll be pursuing for my first degree, where will I be studying? So nerve-wrecking. :O I have always hated waiting. Well, waiting is tiring. Don't you agree with me? I've always wished I could get my exam results straight away after exams. Kan senang once you know your result? Daripada tertanya-tanya siang malam, makan tak kenyang, mandi tak basah? Kan? KAN?! Ya, Shahiela. Macam kalau tengah tengok TV, tiba-tiba terasa perut lapar. Pergi dapur, takde makanan. Hampa. Kena masak. Tak pun tunggu mak masak. Tunggu! Seksa tahu tak?! Bayangkan kalau rasa lapar masa tengah tengok Oh My English, makanan...

Pada hari yang serba indah ini, saya dengan ini ingin membongkarkan satu rahsia. Rahsia yang telah membuatkan ramai yang sakit hati, kecil hati dan makan hati berulam jantung. Walaupun rahsia ini telah terbongkar sedikit sebanyak kepada beberapa pihak kerana orang yang tidak boleh menyimpan rahsia seperti 'kau tahulah kau siapa'. Walau bagaimanapun, inilah hari yang anda tunggu-tunggu selama ini. Rahsia berkenaan bakal saya beritahu di penghujung post ini ya. EPPPP TAK PAYAH NAK SCROLL LAJU-LAJU KE BAWAH NAK TENGOK APA RAHSIANYA DULU. Bawa bersabar k? Bukannya dapat duit pun kalau tahu rahsia tu apa. Mari kita ikuti jelajah, Sebulan Mengerah Keringat. Segalanya bermula dengan mengisi borang jawatan kosong dengan Nadia pada suatu hari Jumaat (kot). Disusuli dengan temuduga oleh bos pada keesokan harinya. Masa ni kena tunggu, nervous! Walaupun cuma interview kerja, kita kenalah jawab soalan dengan baik ye dak? I first kena panggil, interview tu dalam 30 minit.   Habis ...

*yawns* Hello there. I was thinking whether to update my blog tonight or probably tomorrow or... and decided to update it tonight. So here I am. What's up? I just got back from Kelantan actually. Need to attend an interview at USM, Kubang Kerian campus and so I went. Somewhere along the journey. We went there by bus and only God knows how uncomfortable it was in the bus for like 10 hours. T__T The bus was fine, it's just that the long journey... *sighs. We went there on Wednesday and reached at around 7.30pm. Kak Mimie's friend, kak Siti picked us up and brought us for dinner before she sends us to the hotel near USM. My interview session was at 8.30a.m. Since our hotel is really near, we just walked to USM. The place is not bad, I'd rate it 7 out of 10. Well, if you'd ask if I'd like to study there, then I would. The facilities seems fine and I have not found any problem with that place yet. Janganlah banding dengan Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor...