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Salam & hi semua! Before I start babbling, I'd like to wish you a Selamat Hari Rayaaaaaaaaaaaaa! :D Dah Syawal ke berapa entah ni baru nak wish hahaha. Harini nak cerita sikit pasal penjagaan rambut. A few of my friends have been asking what's my hair care routine... Sebenarnya kita segan la sebab kita tak buat apa-apa pun haaaahaha. Alhamdulillah memang takde masalah rambut. So kita buat yang basic je. Takde pun pergi saloon untuk buat treatment ke apa, bukan sebab tak nak tapi mahal laa. If you can afford it, then why not ;) Anyway, since orang tanya, kita jawab je lah. Here's a few things I do with my hair, I'm not sure if this routine keep my hair manageable or it's memang like that LOL. Kalau ada yang nak try, boleh la try. Kalau rasa macam kurang daripada rutin korang pun, bolehlah tambah. Ok? :D Rule number 1 is to wash your hair everyday . Dulu masa freehair zaman sekolah kan, I wash my hair every 2 days sebab ada orang cakap tak elok cuci...

Nope, not the end of posting yet this time. Haha. I just feel like blogging out of a sudden lol. So what's up guys? I'm currently at the end of week 3 of medical posting. Another 3 weeks to go. Anyway, I'm going to have my short case exam next week. I'm so scared T_T as usual. Being the usual me kan, memang penakut weh setiap kali exam. Medical is one of the hardest posting for me. There are so much to learn, so much to digest, so much to take in. Basically it's everything from head to toe. All systems altogether tau tak T_____T Banyak gila, I swear. Semua pun lain-lain. Physical examination generally ada 4 je tapi tu pun susah sangat nak hadam. Tak taulah, semakin banyak belajar, semakin banyak tak tau. Entah lah 3 tahun lepas belajar apa, so superficial. My knowledge is very, very superficial. Memang dasar study untuk exam je, sekarang dah rasa the bad part of doing that :( Examination setiap lecturer lain-lain, semua ada style sendiri. Iku...

Salam and hi there! It's my EOP weekend again haha... I've just finished my ORL posting, one of the minor postings but no, not really a minor for me. Three seminars everyday for 3 weeks, mana minornya pun tak taulah. Stress kena prepare presentation banyak pastu tak sempat nak baca untuk seminar lain -_- It's okay, dah habis pun. But that doesn't mean my suffering stops there, I'll be going to Medical posting after this so yeah... hahaha. Expectation untuk medical posting tinggi tau sebenarnya sebab mostly benda yang dah belajar, supposedly tau banyak dah. Tak macam ophthal or ORL yang banyak benda baru. So bila dah expected to know a lot of things but still you don't, jangan kata lecturer frust, diri sendiri pun frust hah. That's not the point of this post anyway, I'll keep that for later. Syafika, Elly and I went for a short getaway yesterday! Elly has just finished O&G (that's another posting to look forward to ha-ha-ha) while Sya...

Hello! Happy new year, people :) I thought of doing a post on how my 2015 went on the 31st of December but I was too lazy lol. 2015 was great. One of the things I've achieved was of course, passing my Pro 2. And starting clinical years, oh yeah haha. Having a new circle of friends; le Sado bros, oh boy I love them. I thank Allah for granting them in my life, these 6 people with very nice hearts and souls. Each with their own character, it was so fun having them around. Despite of having to be separated from le Sado bros, I got to make new friends with my posting mates. The only one I'm used to is Najat but we were separated in different small groups for each posting so... I still have to start all over again. Alhamdulillah, I can get along with them, still trying to get used to, to feel belong to the group but things are going well so far :) Having time spent with my family, friends, le Sado bros, meeting new people, making new friends and trying new thing...

Well today is one of the days I felt like the whole world is going against me. I am sad. Frustrated to be precise. Medical school is hard. It's nowhere near easy. I don't know if I can survive this :( Today, my lecturer said I wasn't prepared for the presentation. I did. But it wasn't enough, I guess. I forgot what I was supposed to say. I feel dumb. No, I'm not mad at my lecturer. Or maybe I do. I'm sad that he brought me down like that. If I didn't prepare for it, I won't be able to say anything. I'm nowhere near an excellent student. No, tak dapat 4 flat pun like what you said. Tak bangga pun dapat masuk medschool. Sikit pun tak... But I've tried. That doesn't mean I don't even make an effort. I know that in the end, we're the one who lose. I'm the one who can't perform. I'm the one who's going to fail. Haih. Then I start questioning myself again, why am I still here? "You only lose 4 years of...

Salam and hi. It's the end of Surgery posting this time. Well, I guess I'll only be blogging when I'm at the end of my postings now haha. Not to say I'm busy but I just can't afford to do a blog post. Rasa bersalah la, study tak, blog kemain lagi kan :p Surgery wasn't a very nice posting though, tak sukaaaaa -_- I don't know the reason why exactly. It doesn't feel good. Tak best. Macam... blergh. I'll be starting orthopedics after this. Orthopedic = anatomy. Generally, medicine itself is about anatomy. But faham tak macam ortho kan, kalau tak tau anatomy memang tak boleh pergi. Ortho is all about your muscles, bones, vessels zzzz. Kalau anatomy tak strong, memang kelaut weh T___T Camne ni camne niiii zzzzzzz. Rasanya everytime buat blog post baru mesti cerita pasal study kan. Yelah nothing interesting pun nak cerita sekarang ni. I'm stuck here in Kelantan and I should be studying. 2 tahun je lagi ada untuk betulkan apa yang tak betul...

Salam and hi there! Time sure do pass by very fast, ey? Dah 4th year dah Shahiela sekarang hahaha. Maknanya kan, less than 2 years je lagi insyaAllah, kita jumpa kat hospital ye ekeke. InsyaAllah la, doakan tau :'> 4th year is actually very different. 4th & 5th year ni dah clinical phase la. Maknanya most of the time are spent in the ward seeing patients. Muka kami ni la yang asyik datang tanya soalan bebanyak tu. Bukan tanya takde faedah tau, we learn through history taking. Every year we'll hear the same advice from our lecturers tau, Go to the wards, see your patients. Your patients are your textbook. Learn from them. Haa sungguh. Sebabnya, tak semua yang kita baca dalam buku tu, sama dengan apa yang pesakit alami. I didn't mean to say takyah baca buku langsung. Tapi apa yang kita baca dalam buku tu kena jugak seiring dengan apa yang patients go through. Compare lah dari situ. Clinical years ni penat. I'm currently in paediatrics posting, my...