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Warning : This post is an emotional one. So yeah. Usual rantings but with more emotions. LOL. Assalamualaikum and hello. I just got back from the ward actually. Feeling tired and... gloomy? Without no solid reason pun. The feeling just came and surrounds me. Or maybe there are reasons but there's too many that I can't even point it out. Then I started questioning, "why am I even here?" "Tak layak pun..." Such questions often came into my mind lately. Entahlah kenapa asyik rasa macam ni je. Setiap hari, jadi makin teruk. My usual stress therapy doesn't seem to work anymore. Still sad. Still moody. Still feeling down. And a little depressed kot. A little. So what now? I don't like seeing myself being all moody and depressed. Because every time I'm feeling like that, I just got even lazier and I tend to sleep a lot. Things were not right. :( I thought it's homesick. It can be one of the reasons. But ...

Hello. Post sebelum ni lirik lagu sebab aku rasa macam dah lama sangat aku tinggalkan blog so aku kekonon buat comeback dengan post lirik lagu kesukaan yang membuatkan hati ini berbunga bertaman berhutan belantara pabila mendengarnya. Ah kau amende ni -___- Ok serius, serius. Banyak aku nak cerita. Sejak 2 minggu lepas, aku busy tak menang tangan, tak cukup kaki berjalan berlari, tak cukup tidur, tak cukup rehat (duh obviously), tak cukup makan ah serba-serbi tak cukup. Penat. Exhausted. Siap demam lagi, alhamdulillah demam lepas habis semuanya haha. Busy dengan FesKI, busy dengan Women's Week closing ceremony, busy dengan KTP Jeli dan Tumpat. 4 event je pun. 4 EVENT WALAUPUN AKU AHLI KECIL JE TAPI PENAT TAK BOLEH BLAH OK. Ok. FesKI paling crazy sekali kot sebab sampai tak tidur malam segala hahaha. Bermalam-malam pulak tu. Pergh dahsyat. But it all worth it in the end, it went so well and everyone enjoyed it ^_^ Kalau nak cerita satu-satu, tak mampu weh. Sebenarnya aku ...

The way you make me feel you just don't know You always pick me up when I feel low You're the sugar sweet to kick off my day Oh no, I just can't keep away You got the kind of taste that screams so loud The perfect gift without a doubt My eyes light up when you're around I might be addicted to you now You're so sweet, like honey after midnight You melt my heart like chocolate in the sunlight So sweet, like candy after bedtime But all I need, yeah, you're so sweet There's not a thing that could take your place Irreplaceable in so many ways You got the kind of taste that screams so loud The perfect gift without a doubt Yeah, you're so sweet, like honey after midnight You melt my heart like chocolate in the sunlight So sweet, like candy after bedtime But all I need, yeah, you're so sweet You got me singing You love me just, just as I am  You never judge, you never ran  Oh, I'm in love 'cause you're so perfect in every way So sweet, like honey...

Salam and hi. Err? Awkward much. How long have I been away now? Roughly around 2 months, aye? No, not really. I've always been here every now and then or you can say... every hour? Hehe. Not coming up with a blog post doesn't really mean I'm not here, it's just I'm quite busy or maybe not but still can be considered busy, I guess. :p My December was fine but January was fully occupied! Haha. Had lots of last minute work and changes that I had to cramped everything up in that 31 days. Haaa alasan untuk tak sempat study, ehem. No, seriously. I don't have much time to or maybe I spent too much for sleep but I was almost always tired every time I got back to my room :/ Oh by the way, happy 2014? Hehe. During the first weekend of January, I went to MRSM Taiping with 5 friends for a presentation on the Junior Doctors program. Then next weekend was spent at RAYS. I was free for the third weekend and was supposed to study which I didn't blergh. Became a fac...

Dah jadi rutin setiap pagi mesti kena check Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. Kalau sempat breakfast, sambil breakfastlah. Kalau tak sempat, masa sampai dewan kuliah. Walaupun cuma beberapa minit, mesti tengok jugak. Facebook terutamanya paling penting untuk aku. Kenapa? Sebab Facebooklah tempat yang boleh kata hampir semua kawan-kawan ada; kawan sekolah, matriks and universiti. Universiti uolls. Janggal bunyinya. Macam tak percaya dah masuk universiti haha. Okay so bila check FB tu hari-hari, mestilah ramai kawan-kawan update kan. Update gambar, aktiviti, status macam-macamlah. Bila tengok tu semua, selalu teringat balik masa sekolah dulu. Those sweet old memories. Teringat macam mana perangai masing-masing masa sekolah. Aku mengaku, kitorang antara geng skema kat sekolah. Geng skema yang cikgu kenal, geng skema yang siapkan homework, geng skema yang tak langgar peraturan sekolah (okay, ni bukti paling kukuh buat kitorang skema), geng skema yang... you name it. Semakin j...

"So this is just a reminder to myself and all; don’t be consumed by other people’s lives. Be happy for other people’s rezeki and at the same time, appreciate your own rezeki. Live for your own life, love your loved ones and count your blessings everyday. I honestly believe that’s the key to happiness." Taken from Vivy Yusof's blogpost here . I realized that I've been complaining a lot recently. So much to do, yet so little time. Nah, you big fat liar. I spent too much time relaxing and lazing around. Wayyy too much. And then I start complaining this and that. Sigh. Read Vivy's blog just now and came across with that post she wrote. Perfectly written. I've been too busy being jealous and questioning on people's rezeki and stuffs, why is she/he  like this and that, that should be me and whatever crap that were in my mind. What was I thinking, man? T_T So I guess I should constantly remind myself now. Less complaining and be m...

Well, hello people. I'm now typing from my room at USM. Yes, I'm still here when I think everyone else are enjoying tea time at home, hanging out at the mall, having fun wherever they are. And me? I'm all alone here trying to figure out what should I do after this. Oh probably get myself some food. Yup. Why I'm still not home? The family is coming over tomorrow and then we're gonna go jalan-jalan a bit here and then until we head back home on Monday. That's about it. This is the first time staying alone here though. Sigh. It's completely silent okay and that's not okay with me. I'm not that scared but kind of when I start imagining things and then I'll be like talking to myself, "what movie should I watch after this" or "I think I'm gonna eat cereal" every time I was looking at the mirror in the toilet brushing my teeth or washing my face. Ish -___-" And there's this black cat, a naughty one wondering aro...