plucking daisies

Well today is one of the days I felt like the whole world is going against me. I am sad. Frustrated to be precise. Medical school is hard. It's nowhere near easy. I don't know if I can survive this :( Today, my lecturer said I wasn't prepared for the presentation. I did. But it wasn't enough, I guess. I forgot what I was supposed to say. I feel dumb. No, I'm not mad at my lecturer. Or maybe I do. I'm sad that he brought me down like that. If I didn't prepare for it, I won't be able to say anything. I'm nowhere near an excellent student. No, tak dapat 4 flat pun like what you said. Tak bangga pun dapat masuk medschool. Sikit pun tak... But I've tried. That doesn't mean I don't even make an effort. I know that in the end, we're the one who lose. I'm the one who can't perform. I'm the one who's going to fail. Haih. Then I start questioning myself again, why am I still here? "You only lose 4 years of...

Salam and hi. It's the end of Surgery posting this time. Well, I guess I'll only be blogging when I'm at the end of my postings now haha. Not to say I'm busy but I just can't afford to do a blog post. Rasa bersalah la, study tak, blog kemain lagi kan :p Surgery wasn't a very nice posting though, tak sukaaaaa -_- I don't know the reason why exactly. It doesn't feel good. Tak best. Macam... blergh. I'll be starting orthopedics after this. Orthopedic = anatomy. Generally, medicine itself is about anatomy. But faham tak macam ortho kan, kalau tak tau anatomy memang tak boleh pergi. Ortho is all about your muscles, bones, vessels zzzz. Kalau anatomy tak strong, memang kelaut weh T___T Camne ni camne niiii zzzzzzz. Rasanya everytime buat blog post baru mesti cerita pasal study kan. Yelah nothing interesting pun nak cerita sekarang ni. I'm stuck here in Kelantan and I should be studying. 2 tahun je lagi ada untuk betulkan apa yang tak betul...